Now What?!?

Oh mah gosh!!! I'm graduating in less than a week but I feel kinda whatevers! Maybe I'm extremely nervous and I don't know how to show it so I hide it! But I feel more stressed out than anything! Because after I graduate I'm gonna have to look for a full time job!  I have to move back home since I won't have finanical aid and loans to pay my rent. Ahhhhhh...... I am looking forward to home cooked meals though! Mmmmm... real food! And no more stress about paying rent and utilities.  *sigh* I can't believe it.

I haven't even started studying for my finals or started on my paper.  I'm lucky that I set a pretty easy schedule for my final undergrad quarter ... My two finals and the paper are on Thursday... 8am - 6pm! Yay! But I am soooo wasting my time! I'm not even sweating right now hehehe... in my head I still have 3 more days.... I am sooo bad....

I sort of don't want to graduate! Everyone can't wait and are excited but for me.... I lost the excitement.  I guess I am just not ready to 'grow-up' and 'mature'.  I do not want to face reality and responsiblity!

Now I understand why most of my friends who graduated last year were so annoyed when people or I want to ask them: 'So what are your plans?' hehehe.... I ask myself over and over again and still come up with .... I think I'm going to continue working at Starbucks. Ahhhhhhhhhh...........

I wish I have funny stories to write about or remember some good sweet memories ... but all I can think about right now is my fuzzy future.  I've talked to and asked some friends for advice and they all tell me that I'm thinking way overboard! Hehehe... so I'm going to take their advice and just relax and go with the flow! At least enjoy the summer.... and then ......

Dang, March 13th!!! That was the last time I posted?? Hehehe... been a while.... not much to update just that I got the nasty flu after everyone else got over with it... so ya'll need to wash them hands of yours!!! hehehe... just stopping by to say hi hi....

Enjoy the rest of the week. 

Welcome Winter!

So did February just fly by or what???? Gosh, I sumtimes think it's still Feb.  But dude, st. paddy's day is coming up and next thing you know its finals time!!!!

But guess what's just around the corner.... heheheh... yup yup Spring Break!

This year, I really want to try some 'green beer' hehehe... I know I know its just food coloring or whatever the weird heck it is... but it sounds and looks kool... i dun mind feeling irish for a day.... maybe it'll give me some luck b4 my finals... i even got a green halter top just so i can wear it on st. paddy's day.... hopefully i wont forget to wear it =)

This spring break i want to do sumthing too!!! like freaking go to cancun or sumthing hehehe j/k not that extreme yeah... i could never imagine myself partying like those spring break videos... i never really wished... im such a party pooper.... guess its never in me.... i like a party with a few drinks and a couple of board n drinkin games =) the best part is being with good friends..... but its so cold this spring or winter or sprinter... whatever it is... the snow looks kool cuz yup yup snowboarding gets to linger on for a few more weeks... even though i can't afford to go =/ anybody in for donating a few dough for Ann's snowboarding fund???? hehehe just for realz!  But can't wait to go!!!!! it's really fun!!!

the worst part of the cold is It's Cold!!! I get cold very easily..... even with the sun out i feel no heat... the clouds are taking over!

Anyways, enjoy and stay warm! cuz getting sick is not worth it! so yeah, do take cares.  i just know that after finals i always get sick!!! either on or after finals week... any of you guys feel that way? hehehe.... i hope not... let's let there be only one weirdo in this world... in our world at least....

Cold Spring Warm Winter

So I dunno if it's 'that time of the month' or is it the gloomy- sumtimes i want to be hot, sometimes i want to be cold-weather that really puts me in a bad mood.

Have anyone of you feel that sometimes you just need someone to say yeah, i c, uh-huh... after you complain?????

Sometimes it can be sooooooo annoying when you're talking to someone and he/she seems soo damn uninterested cuz all they say is yeah, i c, uh-huh.....

But sometimes.... you just want to be IT.... you want to complain the hell out....

*sigh* double standard.... no wonder guys have such a hard time understanding women....

I can be so damn emotional and so damn sensative sometimes: i even got mad at a stupid girl at the grocery store. I paid for my stuff and decide to bag it myself cuz that stupid girl was buzy talkin to her co worker... so she walks over to me and pats me on the shoulder and tells me... 'i got it' so i finsh bagging what i started and let her finsih her job... then i said... 'well u do bag much faster than i can' and she's like... 'just a little bit' i dunno u had to be there to listen to her fucked up tone of voice... i got so mad... i walked out saying 'that was a lil bitchy'!!!! She doesnt even know how to bag... she was throwing my food into the bags.... and not putting the same type of stuff in the same bags.... grrrrrrrrrrrrr... stupid teenagers!!!!!! 

And another incident was when i wanted to drop my class... but i cant do it the same day b/c the office of registra closed at 5pm but the cashier office closes at 4pm... but i have to pay 3 bucks to the cashier b4 i can turn in my drop form to the office of registra.... i was there at 4:30pm.... so i cant pay the 3 bucks. therefore i cant drop my damn class.  So i got mad and i ask that poor asian guy workin the front desk Why does the cashier close at 4pm when ur damn office closes at 5pm and the two of u guys have to work together?????? and he looks at me like... i dun know you bitch.... now get out of my face.... he pretty much turned hot red.... and walked away from me.... i dunno i am such a bitch sometimes... but only sometimes!!!!!

Hehehe... thinking back I laugh... hehehe I'm a true bitch! And I DUN CARE!!!!!!!!

*sigh* it's sooo good to speak ur mind!!!!! but yeah..... i need to learn to do it in a NICER way..... cut back on the bad attitude... cuz you know I'm a Nice Bitch.

Happy Birthday Connie Sin!!!! Yay!!! It's your golden birthday 22! hehehe I know I know it's the 23rd today... i'm a lil behind schedule but you dun mind!!! Just want to wish you a Happy Birthday...  enjoy it for the whole year!! But please... come visit us!

I'm supposed to be working right now... working on my summary... but im so lazy!!!! Where are you, motivation???? Jeannie, you're gonna look for it for the both of us right? I blame it on the WIND yup... it's way tooo WINDY to be working... to be working on anything!!!! lolz... i know you all agree!

The news even said that today jan. 23rd is the worst day of the year! hehehe... that explains my depressive state.... j/k im not depressed... just unmotivated! but the news is saying that excersise can cure that.... *sigh* that means i need to start up my new year resolution that i already broke .... work out more! hehehe... dude parkin my car in lot 30 "disneyland parking" and walking up the lil uphill to my class is consider a workout for me... i get winded just walking upstairs to my room.... yeah i know... anyone wanna race?!? lolz...... oooooooooooooooooooooooookkkkkkkkk.... gonna start! goodnite!